it was an evil, diabolical plan..

megan is back,

and as such , a few of my priorities have changed. just for this one month spell. Nothing too dramatic, just my sleeping times.


As a general rule, i ensure that i am asleep by eleven oclock at night, and the goal is to be in bed by Ten.
This isn't because i can't stay up late, it used to be my average to stay awake until 2 or 4 am. Especially back in the day when me and my friend josh would pull allnighters every weekend.
I also try and wake up at 6 am, this is just a self discipline i have been teaching myself, and im finding that i now have an actual habit of awaking at 6!

well, considering that with the return of megan, and lacy, we have been running much more than i was running on my own. Add that to the late nights, Plus the habit of no matter what awaking at 6 am, Plus of course a few issues i have with sleeping; RLS, very slight apnea, Plus just not being able to fall asleep. I get the grand total of: being tired.

As such, a nap becomes such a classy, alluring, wondrous phenomenon to be able to experience in the midst of a day full of running, wal-marting (yes, that is a verb i just made), and chopping wood.

Chopping wood.
Is an action, in this case selfless in making a fire for those whom are amidst this frigid weather we experience winter mornings. Which brings me to remember the evil, diabolical plan, i discovered.

i awoke this particular morning to find that i had a text message on my dearly beloved phone, Minerva (goddess of the arts, war, and Music), that i had missed the night before. It was about 5 am, and i dont know why i awoke so early but i did. And as such, i lay in bed for a little bit but then, since it was a bit chilly, i turned on my heater and read my bible, and a book for awhile. Then i recieved a text from megan, saying she was gonna go on a run alone for a little bit. So i wished her good luck, and reminded her about a trip we wanted the three of us to go for a run in the distant land of coupeville, and enjoy a cinnamon roll following the exercise.

while she was gone, Lacy and i went outside to chop wood, in order to heat up the house via fire, and while out there i detected slight anger towards me possibly because she was jealous of my chopping skills.

Afterwards she attempted to make a fire while i read my book, and no offense but she didn't do the best job...So of course i (being somewhat learned in the arts of INFERNO), jumped in and gave it a good try and ergo we had fire.

When megan returned, we hungout for awhile, and then, we read our books , and i announced that i was going to take a nap and then we would go for a run, around town instead of in coupeville. Lacy wanted to go right away, and i insisted on taking a nap. During my nap, i asked for my phone and megan handed it to me, and in order to be able to wake up faster i asked lacy for a drink of aloe vera juice which is .. strong, to say the least.

This is where her diabolical plan was set in place. I , napping, of course would be unaware of my surroundings which is ok considering i was in what i would think a trustworthy environment; and during my slumber Lacy (in my theory) set up my glass of juice in the appropriate place for her nefarious schemes to emerge triumphant.

Upon waking, my shoulder nudged my perfectly placed phone Straight into the Perfectly placed aloe vera juice. Equaling a Horrible, and tragic death for my Beloved Minerva. All attempts to revive, heal, resuscitate her were all futile. As i watched her last flash die out, i got my final goodbye.
Thus ending lacys evil, diabolical, nefarious, flagrant, and villainous plan.

Farewell, dear,

Minerva.

what i dont want for christmas

I , have a laptop.

given to me , for no reason other than love and a few requests and convincing arguments on the importance of a laptop, by my parents.

For which i am thankful so very much, and i enjoy it alot.

Unfortunately,

I , like video games.

This can be a burden, especially since once i had my laptop i realized i could play my much awaited for game half life 2 episode 1 and 2.

(as i am writing this, im eating trail mix..and all the chocolate is gone, but theres still plenty of everything else. i think someone was fishing.)

So dont get me wrong, i enjoy video games. and i like them. In fact i believe, if looked at correctly, video games are a form of art. The best ones have a good story, and good artwork, and took alot of work to create. im not talking about the ones full of mindless action, and just simply point and shoot like the popular ones of today; but games like Metroid, and Zelda, bioshock, mass effect... games with actually some substance.

Its actually why i play video games now,
At first when i started at a young age, i played because video games are very distracting and easy entertainment.
Then when i got a gamecube i started enjoying games with a bit more of a book feeling, the thought that its like reading a book, but instead your playing it,
Thats why i play video games now; altho sometimes i do play because its an easy slightly fun distraction. But if a game doesnt have a good story or a good review and at least some story im not going to play it.


Multiplayer games are a different thing of course.


so for christmas, id appreciate no video games.

So i Totally pee'd on a frog..

One day, in the aftermath of a glorious ultimate Frisbee battle, we were hanging out in the Fort Nu gent football field. A group of friends and i were just hanging out watching other people play football, when i had the Novel idea to attempt one of my old tricks of climbing a football pole, notice, im now 21 and when i did this in the past i was 14, well I fell of off it. From,



.


Well, after landing on my head, Which bounced and rebounded to the ground a time or two, ; I jumped up and felt dizzy but assured everyone i was fine. Except i couldnt really walk because my ankle was in alot of pain, so they instructed me to sit down for a bit, then i started feeling Very tired, so i informed everyone that i was going to sleep and i laid down and then went to sleep. within seconds they had all surrounded me and were attempting to wake me up, which i did and i jumped up and said, "Kidding!" . Cus i didnt want them to worry, but yeah, so for about 3 weeks i didnt run or do anything, which of course led me into a few bouts with depression, until i found myself with a membership at Thrive and i started to stretch and stuff and work on my ankle a bit.

Then Now, I can run.

Well, the other day i went for a run and whilst i was in the midst of my run i felt the need to urinate. So i waited until i found myself running thru a secluded forest, and walked off into the depth of trees for a chance of alonity to .. yeah .
Well, i started to pee and being bored i aimed at the nearest leaf, which immediatly jumped out of the stream. well, of course this just made the game more fun, so i proceded to change aim in order to chase it. It jumped again, which surprised me and i noticed, It was a frog! i flinched and finished then i proceded to follow the frog until i escaped into a log. Having been brought up with manners, I apologized to my dear friend Mr. Frog, and then having no answer i informed him that it was not in my intent to damage him pyschologically or put him thru any distress. Well, what i didn't know, was someone was on the path not too far behind me and i think they heard me talking to our beloved mutual friend Mr. Frog, and thus emanated from them a strange look at myself.

The path i ran on after that is a large field that circles and throughout my journey on said field i ran into this lady and her dog a few times. Each time she gave me a look that seemed to say, Ur a nutcase. Causing me some alarm and having me change my route a few times so i wouldnt run into her anymore, Even to the point of ended my run a little shorter than i had originally intended.

The morals:
Don't judge people for talking to frogs
And ensure that you are alone whenever carrying a conversation with our amphibian friends.

in my temp office

ive been in this room for over 50 hours in the past 7 days. its not big. its small. being a secretary is pretty easy, and so far ive had alot of time to do pretty much nothing.

part of this nothing, has been to find a bunch of new music which i wont be able to add to my collection until i get a computer of my own that i can store it all into.
here is a sample of the music i have been deciding i like,

id say my fav, is breathe in from frou frou, that or the best of you from number one gun, or one ive had for a long time but thought id put in there anyways is breathe from telepopmusik.

But i like all these songs pretty alot much.


http://www.playlist.com/playlist/18155865867

clicking on that link should take u to the playlist megan, oh and yeah i changed my mind. u do have to listen to all of it.

a Happy memory of long ago can equal a sad moment today

its amazing to me how sad i can get from seeing, and living thru something happy.

like, growing up. its a happy thing, ive moved out, im on the lookout for a job to fund my college im planning on taking, my body is at the point that things that used to be laborios are now easy, i can reach the top shelf for my mom, and even get a cup out of the cupboard without using a chair. mowing the yard becomes a simple task not a huge victory. But these memorys that are so good to have pull a fast one on me and next thing i know they are what causes my mind to fall into a sad/happy state.

I just finished watching a video of a friends sister she works in a nursery and in the video you can see all the kids dancing. Its rather funny, and entertaining, making me think of back in the day when i was so little, and i would dance like that. But whats sad is seeing a kid that looks like me dance like i used to, and then remembering those...effortless days compared to today where dancing is such a chore and inexplicably convoluted. ..and language is more complex also. But thats also one of the happy things, life is more and more..entertaining by being difficult. like a video game gets harder the farther you go, if it didnt who would play that?

Then thinking of kids, gets me thinking of future me, will i have kids, and that of course brings about sad thoughts of like, am i good enough to have any kids, would my kids end up being sum messed up mixed up zelda eccentric nutcase? (causing those, depressing thoughts ive learned to suppress, of looking at me like im just another oddball etc.) And of course, after kids, when im old, just thinking of old fills me with a like..sad/blissful feeling about that when i reach the end of this race, i get to look forward to my true home filling me with the certainty that everything is alright..which is slowly drained by the thought that when i die , well, im dead and that of course scares me a bit (along with a fear of not knowing what is next, once i die will i ever eat another reeses?) and that saying goodbye to life, and goodbye to my music, my friends, my cat, which is sad on its own ..he's dying soon.. and dying isnt all that scares me of being old. its my lifestyle as being an old senile aged guy with a possibility of being impaired. and if im married will she be alive, will she want to be alive with an aged annoyance.
I know, that verse,
Matt. 34 "So don't worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. "
but its not that im really worried. what happens happens,, it may have just sounded like i was worried..maybe a bit, but this verse really is encouraging. so no worries, but ,, i still have that sadness that tragedy lying in wait feeling, like when i watched lion king the second time, i like mufassa, but hes gonna die. i just know it. that was years ago, and today a tragic movie like in i am legend, and his dog gets bit. yeah, im like..not the dog. i dont even like dogs, but dont kill the dog. But no worries, ive got enought to worry about today. like, my lunch is all the way in the car, and ive waited 3 hungry hours cus im too lazy to go get it..but im hungry ..modern warfare for me,..

When i was growing up, i was told that when i go to heaven, there wont be husbands and wives, there wont be anything that honestly sounds fun to me. like, there wont be playing , itll be an eternity of worship. as a kid, i actually pondered if there was an alternative , cus to me back then..wow that long of worship is horrible. actually even now, i dont care if that makes someone mad. honestly, standing in a room worshiping God is great sounds fun but, theres gotta be more. Thats when, i decided that worship cant be just singing, and theres alot of teachers who told me the same thing reinforcing my theory.
Worship, can be me listening to techno watching the sunset. which yes, i did that last week, was the best ending to a run at Fort Ebey ever. Worship can be like, writing a poem, or even Loving on someone. so thats even more encouraging, to know that, heaven isnt a letdown, its something to look forward to, making being old not so scary.

Theres still Tons of other things that are actively chasing my train of thought with notions of sad emotions, and i still feel sad about growing up and thinking about life.

But thats ok. and imminent what with me being me.

living in Oak harbor

Officially, I live in oak harbor. its pretty different; i lived with my parents for 20 years, and ever since i was 15 i dreamed of getting out. but a few things got in my way, one of them being me, and now that i finally have flown out on my own, I keep running into things that slow me down.

Recently, i nearly broke my ankle, and my car is broken..so sad, she and i have been thru alot. and im not giving up on her yet. we can still drive, its just extra expensive what with the cost of gas, and oil. I dont have a job, Altho this week i am working for a mister Travis Marth, as a secretary. and i actually like it,. probbly cus its easy. but its cool talking on the phone to people i know i will never see. its easier.

And, awkward moment, ..working for the marths im located in theyr house upstairs in an office, well, i got thirsty just now, so i walked downstairs, and theres a bunch of kids and some parents, i had no idea were here and for about 6 insanely awkward seconds they all just stared at me, as did Mrs. marth, then i said..can i have sum waTer, and my voice cracked. so ..yeah, that got a couple smiles and Mrs. marth said this is jack, sure its over there. i promptly poured myself a glass and moved upstairs as quick as my ankle would allow.

Living in Oak harbor, is a little larger than stanwood, and i really wish i had a bike right now. so i think im gonna get one. not buy, just take one from my parents. moving to oak harbor is kinda hard tho, cus im naturally shy and not that outgoing. and lately ive been very ...untalkative, making it just that much harder. so getting to know people, is a seemingly astronomical impossibility that i guess just continued prayer for a rocketship from God to help me surmount the insurmountable galaxy that twinkles with my inabilitys to communicate.

Anyways, ive been looking up a bunch of bands that ive never heard of before pandora radio, and im finding a bunch of stuff that i like. pretty exciting. but, i cant borrow any of it offline cus i dont have a computer at my disposal anymore. just the usage of internet while im working at the marths. and on occasion when i go to the Intern house.

Which, being an intern , so far, is ...ok. just being honest.

I really desire, to start running once i can again, and maybe learn how to swim a little better. and definetly learn and further my education, before i go to college again.

But i guess, Step one would be getting a job, in order to afford all that i want to do. including, eating more healthy. Dont get me wrong, the halls eat pretty healthy. but, i try really hard not to eat alot of theyr food cus, well i feel bad.

If i post another blog later this week, i might include my playlist of all the new music im listening to now.

Right now, im trying to figure out my own personal view of theology on music. and exactly what counts as "christian" and what is "secular" . altho, im thinking that both types are too...specific. like Relient K is considered christian, but alot of theyr songs are about girls, and i was told that the only music a REAL christian listens to is worship. Haha, which is 100% against what i actually think. So then, going against my upbringing, im currently listening to a Ton of "secular" music, thats just about Life-a bunch of electronic music. OF course, nothing explicit. Cus, honestly, im just not entertained by someone telling me how they like it/want it. and then music which involves cussing, doesnt sound too good either. And music that brings someone down, or isnt...uplifting i guess, just doesnt bode too well with my interest.

Recently

This week has been pretty busy. So this blog is kinda long...sorry

SO This should be a playlist that me and josh made real fast at the dance party you can read of below. Sorry if it dont work. you can always just .. go here... http://www.playlist.com/playlist/17750722827

been sick, and havent run since monday, but i ran this morning. i drove to the camano island state park, and went for a 45 min run; with my sansa and listening to a good running playlist, until after about 25 min my sansa Died. other than that it was a good run, and the park there was pretty busy actually, at 11 in the morning i saw quite a few people still. just walking around and stuff.

Anyways, last wednesday, 3 days ago, i got my hair cut , Heres a before and after

Before a shower,

After a shower,

And after a haircut,

and afterwards i went to the church and was going to attend a meeting on what the next year at stanwood foursquare fusion is going to look like...but instead me and my friend josh drove out to mount vernon so that he could buy himself a game at best buy. but turns out best buy didnt have the game he was looking for, so we went to olive garden instead. ..and a note on olive garden, they are good italian food, but super expensive...unless you ask for the endless spaghetti bowl. which just happens to not be on the menu, and its exactly what it sounds like . endless spaghettig, for 8 bucks, non ending bread sticks and like 5 sauces to choose from. a pretty good deal i think.

Anyways, we went over to gamestop and i bought a game called army of two, and we are planning on beating it within 7 days cus then i can return it and get a full refund!

At this point, it was about 830 at night, and there was a dance party that started at 9. Josh didnt want to go, but i kinda did. just cus,, well i wish i could dance so its fun to go to places and pretend. So it took a little convincing, but i was able to get josh to agree to go to the dance party for 3 songs, if we got energy drinks. So i got a monster coffee mocha drink. and drank about 3/4 before we got to the house of the party. But we had a plan,

We parked a ways away from the house so they wouldnt know of our arrival. then we climbed an embankment that runs along the road in front of the house, and we walked along the embankment until we were just about straight out from the house, when a car came so we ducked and layed low, until the car parked, unloaded and then all was quiet again. so we went into the front yard, waited until a new song began, and once the song started we ran to the door, Burst it open and started putting on our dance moves; without saying a single word. people were cheering, and saying hi, and we would just wave, or shake our head, . after 3 songs, (which was hard to tell because they were using a Cd so there was a bunch of skippage), me and josh, burst the door open, and ran out to my car. all without saying anything at all.

Once in my car, we felt bad so we made a quick playlist on my ipod, theres a sample at the top.. Then we went inside i showed andrea my ipod, and she understood. we then hooked it up, and we got to dance, skip free.

Also during this week i beat bioshock, which is a good achievement, cus now, im gonna not play any vid games for a bit. unless im with someone.

AT my work, i have about 18 days left; and yesterday i sat down with my boss and told her that im gonna be moving, and that im going to turn in my two weeks notice in a few days, ...not in those words but thats the jist of it. Afterwards she had me help unload a truck in the back room , which was a pain, but oh well.. the thing that worries me tho, is according to quite a few of my coworkers, at this particular wal-mart apparently, theres been a few people who turn in theyr two weeks notice, and then the next day, they are told that they are fired! so ...i hope that doesnt happen. cus thats not cool.

Anyways,

cya.

Sunday, yesterday, sunny

Before church, me and my brother ran at like, 825 to 910.,..altho we took a walking break so joeph could cure himself of a side ache. in total, about 40 mins...
Then, i shaved my face, and went to church. Listened to Tim Pretzel tell all about the good samaritan story..altho, he went through the whole sermon and never even told the story, which was impressive i thought; and he talked alot about who our neighbors our,,,,which i guess then we each have about 7 Billion neighbors in this world, according to his instruction/interpretation. which i think is a good observation.

After church, i was keeping my mind entertained by shooting people with a small pocket sized squirt gun. i dont even have to shoot people all the time, just pointing it makes people jump. Hah, ..so much fun. Except brycen..he doesnt flinch much at all. and , no offense, but when people ask to get sprayed ..its not so much fun. But for the people who Freak out, ..its just water, get over yourself,. are you gonna cry if it starts raining? you live in washington, be ready to get Washed.

Then, me josh, (hah, grammar) joeph and Ty went to subway got a tuna sandwich and ate it at the church. then my brother and josh started cleaning the church and i left to go play Frisbee! which was boring at first. cus they were just tossing a frisbee around,..and to be honest ive never seen much point in it. altho im sure its exhilarating to catch it..i cant catch. (Apologies if this blog is really boring, but..im new to this so keep reading..?) Once about 12 people had shown up we started playing ultimate frisbee. which was actually alot of fun. for about 2 hours people showed, played, left, then my brother joeph and josh arrived and then the game got a little more intense.
At warm beach camp infront of the main lodge theres a field, (which is where we played..) and at one end of the field is a small building meant for lodging.,, but its pretty short building. But anyways, at one point a frisbee was tossed ontop of said shorty building. and (i apologize for bragging, but im a guy and sometimes i have to) but this one guy, nathan, jumped and did a pull up and just about got on top.. and i hate laughing at other peoples mistakes but since he wasnt quite able to flip ontop john vlach ran up and was trying to help him..(im laughing as i recall this occurence..but im sure you had to be there)..and john just grabs nathans but and starts pushing him ontop of the building, it was hilarious because itd be easier to grab his feet..but yeah just kept pushing his backside, and i realized..this isnt going to work. So i ran up and jumped grabbed the building and swung myself ontop doing a summersault over the edge.

The rest of ultimate frisbee was a good sprint workout. felt very good. i forget sumtimes how much i miss being a sprinter. then i went home and ate steak with my family cus we celebrated my dads bday, and we watched a movie, and partway through the movie i had a chance to call megan, and so we stopped movie, and i went and had a good convo. ..,,after movie and pie, i played bioshock and got creeped out, then josh showed up and he watched me play sum more. Then he and i watched an episode of bleach,

Then i went to bed.

sorry if that was long and boring!, thanks for reading..,

dont hurt aliens

Today, my family and i cleaned the home in which we reside. and moved the weight machine thing around. and,, i ate eggs and toast for breakfast.

Early this morning i did sum short devos, and played gears of war until it got hard enough that i gave up. then i went to josh's house after cleaning, and he and i went to jamba juice, and mongo grill..then i invited a bunch of people to join me and josh as we were going to watch ponya. it was too short of notice, and so instead we watched district 9. Well..we bought tickets for ponya, and went to sit down, and realized..it was in a crappy theatre room. so we snuck into the room for district nine., and watched that minus the first ten minutes.

What i learned from that movie..dont hurt aliens, cus its not nice. in fact aliens are much nicer than most of you humans. it was in total.. a gruesome movie, and a few bad choices by the main character made it worse. but it was also a good sorta movie.

If anyone wants to go running let me know-

floating downriver

On sunday, me, Megan, and Josh all went to some river, i think the stilly; and along with Gary and a bunch of other people who i barely know, we took some of my familys wonderous blowup rafts and one innertube..plus a mini life boat. After our arrival to the river head, and after we put air into the floaties, i made a fateful decision. I decided to go shirtless. Not very smart, considering that it was a 3 hour ride downriver, and it had been almost a whole year since my body had seen the sun..without a shirt at least. So, needless to say, i was very very white, and due to the unusually hotness of the day, was lazy and laid on my back, almost the entire float down.

On this river , there were soo many people, we had alot of fun, and altho there were no real intense parts, except for one 2 foot drop...which was actually quite entertaining seeing how Megs and my boats were tied together and josh was holding on from behind on his innertube. I managed to glide through the fall without so much of a splash even; Megan tho, completely submerged her floatable raft with a new patent!, if only for a second.

After finishing, megan and i dropped josh off at his car, and went back to our respective homes, showered and i went to pick her up at her house in order to go from there to Swing dancing.

Swing dancing is alot of fun when you dont know what your doing only if you dont care about looking a goof. Its also alot of fun when you know all the moves..or so i assume; it sure looks fun. But after missing the entirety of the lesson that went from 9 to 930, i proceeded to tell megan how to do the whole..step step rockstep .. not knowing what i was doing at all, i have to say i was pretty close to how your supposed to do it. after a quick lesson from the famous whitney blackburn herself, we hesitantly stepped onto the dance floor amidst a large crowd of furiously dancing, and literally swinging mass of legs limbs and all sorts of people making the most out of a 7 dollar event. Quite worth the price considering its longer than any movie, and exercise, and u get to talk with people.
After about half an hour of trying to get it right me and megan, decided we were tired of caring and danced for an hour and a half, doing the two step rockstep, and making a few moves on our own. at this point our tiredness, my sunburn, and our self consciousness caused us to venture outside and attempt to get some ice cream from a closed ice cream shop. The owner said no.

IT is now Wednesday, and my sunburn has turned to blisters on my shoulders, and im being quite the baby about it. altho, to be fair, i only slept ..at least less than an hour last night. So, right now im pretty tired, but sleeping now seems a bit impossible still. being that i cant move lest my pain be increased.

Tonight is megans last night at youth group, and Im going to leave for fusion soon.

Good lying.

We just finished the workout machine.

me and my brother convinced K.c. , before we showed him the machine, that the workout machine was actually a waiting machine,... as in you would sit on it and it would vibrate like crazy and you would wait until you were muscular. ...he believed us. Crazy as it sounds,

we must be good liars.