living in Oak harbor

Officially, I live in oak harbor. its pretty different; i lived with my parents for 20 years, and ever since i was 15 i dreamed of getting out. but a few things got in my way, one of them being me, and now that i finally have flown out on my own, I keep running into things that slow me down.

Recently, i nearly broke my ankle, and my car is broken..so sad, she and i have been thru alot. and im not giving up on her yet. we can still drive, its just extra expensive what with the cost of gas, and oil. I dont have a job, Altho this week i am working for a mister Travis Marth, as a secretary. and i actually like it,. probbly cus its easy. but its cool talking on the phone to people i know i will never see. its easier.

And, awkward moment, ..working for the marths im located in theyr house upstairs in an office, well, i got thirsty just now, so i walked downstairs, and theres a bunch of kids and some parents, i had no idea were here and for about 6 insanely awkward seconds they all just stared at me, as did Mrs. marth, then i said..can i have sum waTer, and my voice cracked. so ..yeah, that got a couple smiles and Mrs. marth said this is jack, sure its over there. i promptly poured myself a glass and moved upstairs as quick as my ankle would allow.

Living in Oak harbor, is a little larger than stanwood, and i really wish i had a bike right now. so i think im gonna get one. not buy, just take one from my parents. moving to oak harbor is kinda hard tho, cus im naturally shy and not that outgoing. and lately ive been very ...untalkative, making it just that much harder. so getting to know people, is a seemingly astronomical impossibility that i guess just continued prayer for a rocketship from God to help me surmount the insurmountable galaxy that twinkles with my inabilitys to communicate.

Anyways, ive been looking up a bunch of bands that ive never heard of before pandora radio, and im finding a bunch of stuff that i like. pretty exciting. but, i cant borrow any of it offline cus i dont have a computer at my disposal anymore. just the usage of internet while im working at the marths. and on occasion when i go to the Intern house.

Which, being an intern , so far, is ...ok. just being honest.

I really desire, to start running once i can again, and maybe learn how to swim a little better. and definetly learn and further my education, before i go to college again.

But i guess, Step one would be getting a job, in order to afford all that i want to do. including, eating more healthy. Dont get me wrong, the halls eat pretty healthy. but, i try really hard not to eat alot of theyr food cus, well i feel bad.

If i post another blog later this week, i might include my playlist of all the new music im listening to now.

Right now, im trying to figure out my own personal view of theology on music. and exactly what counts as "christian" and what is "secular" . altho, im thinking that both types are too...specific. like Relient K is considered christian, but alot of theyr songs are about girls, and i was told that the only music a REAL christian listens to is worship. Haha, which is 100% against what i actually think. So then, going against my upbringing, im currently listening to a Ton of "secular" music, thats just about Life-a bunch of electronic music. OF course, nothing explicit. Cus, honestly, im just not entertained by someone telling me how they like it/want it. and then music which involves cussing, doesnt sound too good either. And music that brings someone down, or isnt...uplifting i guess, just doesnt bode too well with my interest.